kimmo framelius päiväkirja

kimmo framelius päiväkirja

kimmo framelius päiväkirja

kimmo framelius päiväkirja

here i use my time

time took me

East 17 - Hey Child official video

artwork by kimmo framelius who loves catherine

PRESIDENTIN KANSLIA TULI KATSOTTUA YLEN AREENALTA

ILMAA IKKUNASTA
LASISSA VIELÄ TEETÄ
joko on kevät ?

YES

YES
I HAD A GOOD SHOWER
IT FEELS GOOD TO BE ALIVE
WHY BOTHER WITH GRASPING AND REJECTION 
PURITY AND DEFILEMENT 
PROFANE AND SACRED 
RIGHT AND WRONG
AND SO ON ?
AND THE GOLDEN WAVES WILL SUDDENLY APPEAR 
SHINING THROUGH THE MOUNTAINS RIVERS AND EARTH 
THE MYRIAD DISTINCTIONS AND THOUSANDS OF DIFFERENCES 
THE REALM OF REALITY IS AS VAST AS COSMIC SPACE
IT IS THE KNOWING MIND OF SENTIENT BEINGS THAT IS SMALL
TRUTH HAS NO COMPARISON 
BECAUSE IT IS NOT RELATIVE TO ANYTHING
ONLY A CLEAR MIND KNOWS ITSELF 

I AM HERE FOR YOU

Live Webcast: Finding Happiness in Troubled Times | The Office of His Holiness The Dalai Lama

Live Webcast: Finding Happiness in Troubled Times | The Office of His Holiness The Dalai Lama

FRESH MIND

ONE MOMENT

The Monkey Buddha

The Monkey Buddha

ONE TOUCH OVER SPACE AND TIME

old man

there was old man

old man sat

old man went to walk

old man ate bread and cheese

his mind was empty

he found a good seat 

he sat there 

all was pandemonium at the time life building 

in the lobby 

nobody was being allowed into or out of the building

but all this blitzkrieg of activity was buffered from the point of origin of that which had caused all the commotion -

the ninth floor

and warner books 

as this old man entered the lobby

he had the sign-in book impounded 

then he rode the elevator with a crowd of police officers 

- i don't want anyone on or off this floor

- that means i want every elevator

service elevator 

and staircase covered 

you see anything that even moves wrong 

arrest it

- the only way anyone gets off this floor is jumping out the window 

- let's not fuck this up

AND THE DOORS OPENED TO A PERFECTLY NORMAL-LOOKING LOBBY

THE UNIFORMS WENT WHERE THEY HAD TO GO

AND THE REMAINING THREE OFFICERS FOLLOWED THIS OLD MAN INTO THE RECEPTION AREA 

OLD MAN DROPPED HIS BADGE BEFORE THE RECEPTIONIST COULD OPEN HER MOUTH

- TAKE ME TO THIS EXTENSION PLEASE 

- - I CAN'T LEAVE THE...

old man shook both his index fingers at her without saying a word 

pointed at her

then pointed for her to get out from behind her desk

she exited the enclosed area 

took the piece of paper from this old man

- this is mrs jenkins's line

o god

she's the new editor here

- i hope she's not in any trouble...

THEY ROUNDED A FEW CORNERS

PASSED SEVERAL PARTITIONED OFFICES

AND THEN STOPPED IN FRONT OF OFFICE

- MEET YOUR NEW EDITORS

old man told all about the book he was in the process of writing

HE WAS SIMPLY IN THE WRONG PLACE AT THE WRONG TIME

AND TRYING TO MAKE A FEW EXTRA LONG-DISTANCE CALLS AT HIS PUBLISHER'S EXPENSE 

and everything about him demonstrated that he was

in fact 

exactly who he said he was

AND THERE HE SAT NEAR THE WINDOW

HE WAS THINKING ABOUT DETAILS IN HIS BOOK :

with uniform equanimity 

everything disappears of itself

only then do you attain great effectiveness 

when you come to the boundary of life and death 

you calmly become absolutely still

without any further effort whatsoever

just being so 

like a polar mountain -

does that not hit the mark ?

IN THAT SEAT THIS OLD MAN SAT MANY HOURS

OFFICE WAS CLOSED

BUT HE WAS SITTING AT THE SAME POSITION 

THERE WAS NO END FOR HIS SITTING

HE AND THAT GOOD SEAT WERE ONE

ALL WAS SAID IN HIS BOOK

HE COULDN'T MOVE ANYMORE

AND SUDDENLY HIS BREATHING STOPPED 

HE WAS DEAD

HIS BODY CAME COLDER

AND THEY FOUND HIS SMILING BODY IN THE MORNING

those police officers were only in his mind

and we never get to know what else there was in his mind

he never wrote a word

he was only thinking about everything

he didn't found his life in this life...

- 2 C

LIGHT SNOW
I GO TO ANOTHER ROOM TO WORK WITH PEN AND PAPER

THEY CALL ME

0 C

LIGHT SNOW

A CUP OF COFFEE

HERE AND NOW

PUBLISHED !

what ?

HERE I KISS MY WIFE CATHERINE AGAIN AND AGAIN

HERE'S TO YOU, BABY !

I HAVE TO WASH MY DISHES NOW

i return to this painting for an answer

they are like foraging goats that pick up whatever they bump into

Star Wars according to a 3 year old.

I DON'T HAVE TO KNOW EVERYTHING

i have to wash the dishes

ALWAYS SOMETHING NEW

LIGHT SNOW

AND THERE WAS LIGHT SNOW

I AM A HAPPY MAN

YES INDEED I AM A HAPPY MAN

i like movies

deadline is a good film
now i have this deadline dvd video
i like to sit at home
i like to eat bread
i like to eat cheese
i love my peaceful life
but now i want to go to shower
my life is simple
in the morning i go to shower
i need time to write a new love-letter to catherine
i love catherine
i don't have more words for writing
later i return to this deadline video
now i am tired
i go to shower
then i go to bed
i already ate all my gouda cheese
it was very good
this is my life
i hear the wind
i wait for the spring
i need a new spring

symptoms

MONDAY WIND

MY PATH IS WET 
MY HEAD IS WET

i write

i follow my fingers
i find these words
i want to wash my face
i go to bathroom
i am kimmo

to sit here

to live this moment
to be open
to look at things
to receive one's life
to honor life
to give space and love to oneself
to live a happy life with everything one gets from this universe

MONDAY

I LISTEN TO MY OWN HEART

I WAIT MY MORNING

RAIN

RAIN

to listen to your body

it is important to relax
look
listen to
be open

CATHERINE CATHERINE I LOVE YOU

IT IS VERY IMPORTANT TO WRITE WITH A PEN

THE RECIPE OF LOST TASTE

I LOVE YOU
WHAT ?
I ESCORT MRS M TO THE DOOR
I OPEN THIS OLD DOOR
SHE HOLDS ON TIGHT AS WE SHAKE HANDS
AND ASKS ME 
"WILL WE MAKE IT DOCTOR ?"
I TRY NOT TO SHOW MY ANNOYANCE FOR HER CONSTANT 
CHILDISH NEED OF MAGICAL REASSURANCE 
I LOVE HER EYES
I LOVE HER BIG EYES 
"I CERTAINLY HOPE SO !"
I REPLY
TRYING HARD TO BE AS CONVINCING AS POSSIBLE 
BUT AS I WALK BACK INTO MY OFFICE I AM COMPLETELY DISCOURAGED
THE SESSION WAS TOTALLY EXHAUSTING 
AND FRUSTRATING 
ALL AT ONCE 
AFTER MONTHS OF HARD WORK 
SHE SHOWED ALL OF THE INITIAL SYMPTOMS AGAIN 
STILL
EVERYTHING WAS GOING SO WELL
SHE HAD STOPPED VOMITING 
SHE WASN'T NERVOUS 
SHE WAS SLEEPING AGAIN 
SHE HAD EVEN GONE TO THE HAIRDRESSER 
BUT TONIGHT SHE SEEMED AS IF SHE HAD GONE BACK TO THE VERY BEGINNING 
AS IF NOTHING HAD HAPPENED ALL THESE LONG MONTHS 
SHE VOMITS THREE TIMES A DAY
NO SLEEP
SHE IS ANGUISHED 
THINKS SHE'S UGLY 
FEELS TIRED 
SAD
AND I TOO FEEL VERY SAD 
PERHAPS I WAS WRONG FOR HAVING COMPLIMENTED HER ON HER IMPROVEMENTS IN THE LATEST SESSIONS 
WHICH WERE 
ACTUALLY TRULY IMPRESSIVE AND COMFORTING 
I MUST HAVE ROUSED SOME SORT OF AGGRESSIVENESS IN HER TOWARDS ME
"I FEEL BETTER THANKS TO PSYCHOTHERAPY 
THEREFORE THE DOCTOR IS REALLY POWERFUL 
SHE CAN MAKE ME FEEL BETTER OR WORSE JUST BY WANTING IT"
THIS IS WHAT MUST HAVE BEEN UNCONSCIOUSLY GOING THROUGH HER MIND
AND IN ORDER TO DEMONSTRATE BOTH HER INDEPENDENCE AND MY IMPOTENCE SHE'S MANAGED TO HAVE ALL HER SICKNESSES COME BACK
IT MUST BE LIKE THIS
BUT I'M MUCH TOO TIRED NOW TO GIVE AN EXACT RENDERING OF THIS UNEXPECTED THERAPEUTIC DEBACLE 
THERE'S ANOTHER PATIENT OVER IN THE WAITING ROOM
IT'S A FIRST APPOINTMENT 
USUALLY I DON'T PUT PATIENTS IN AT THE LAST HOUR 
TIREDNESS GETS TO ME BY THE END OF THE WORKDAY 
WHICH 
AGAINST MY WILL
MAKES ME LESS ATTENTIVE AND RECEPTIVE 
BESIDES 
AFTER 7 PM 
THE APARTMENT I SHARE WITH MY COLLEAGUES IS COMPLETELY DESERTED 
RECEIVING A COMPLETE STRANGER COULD BE PRETTY RISKY 
I LOOK AT MY AGENDA TO FIGURE OUT SOMETHING ABOUT THE MAN I AM GOING TO MEET : PERHAPS I'VE SCRIBBLED A NOTE THAT CAN HELP ME DECIPHER THE REASON OF THIS EXCEPTION TO MY RULE 
I LOVE MY WINDOW
I CAN GET LOST INTO THIS WINDOW
THIS WINDOW IS MY EVERYTHING
THIS WINDOW AND I
WE ARE ONE
WHAT CAN I SEE
WHAT DO I FEEL NOW ?
WHAT IS A MIND ?
WHAT IS LIFE ?

i need my wife

i have a need

i was thinking about many things

i had a mind
i had more
it was difficult to see some light
the typical reaction of people to old-style tyrannical power was revolt
i lost myself
isn't the typical reaction to modern power 
power of manipulation and advertising use of drugs 
alcoholism and drug addiction ?
i lost myself 
both phenomena are of recent origin and have gained their present threatening dimensions at modern times 
times of freedom and humanism 
but also of an increase in manipulation and harassment 
isn't use of drugs also an attempt to regain an integrated personality 
a freedom from alien power implanted inside of us 
from our schizoid condition ?
WHERE ARE WE NOW ?
WHO AM I ?

POLICE LINE DO NOT CROSS

POLICE LINE DO NOT CROSS
POLICE LINE DO NOT CROSS
- WHAT ?
- THIS EVENING I WAS WATCHING THE ALPHABET KILLER DVD VIDEO
IT IS A GOOD FILM ABOUT MENTAL DISORDERS
THIS TIME THE POLICE HAD THOSE MENTAL DISORDERS
AND THEY DIDN'T FIND THE SERIAL KILLER
IN THIS MOVIE WHICH WAS MADE IN 2008 ELIZA DUSHKU WAS VERY GOOD AS A POLICE WITH MENTAL DISORDERS 
ALSO CARY ELWES WAS VERY GOOD
AND ALSO TIMOTHY HUTTON WAS WERY GOOD
THIS MOVIE HAD MANY GREY SCENES IN IT
I LIKE THIS MOVIE
BUT I HAVE SEEN BETTER MOVIES DURING MY LIFE
BUT I AM HAPPY THAT I NOW HAVE THIS IN MY DVD COLLECTION
THOSE MURDERS ARE A TRUE STORY FROM THE 1970'S USA
BEST GREETINGS TO ELIZA DUSHKU 
THIS WAS MY FIRST TIME TO SEE HER WORK AS AN ACTRESS 
AGAIN I HAVE TO SAY THAT SHE WAS VERY GOOD 
THANK YOU

- 15 C

I AM HUNGRY

I DON'T KNOW

I DON'T KNOW
BUT THAT'S NOT A PROBLEM
I DO THEN SOMETHING ELSE
ALWAYS I CAN DRAW
DRAWING IS FUN
YOU DON'T HAVE TO THINK ANYTHING
YOU ARE DRAWING WITH YOUR PEN
I HAVE PAPER
I HAVE THIS PEACEFUL LIFE
I LOVE IT
I AM IT
WE ARE ONE

I AM HUNGRY

I COOK GNOCCHI PASTA
WITH IT I HAVE CHILI TUNA
I LOVE CHILI TUNA

- 15 C

i make coffee and tea

taking it easy

taking it easy
yes taking it easy
yes indeed taking it easy

view blog

what did you wrote ?
view blog
and then 
a cup of tea
this silence
this mind
finding the still point
this Monday
eternal now
fresh start
now you can open your window
now you can see more snow
that's good
thank you